I had trouble falling asleep last night. Between the lawyers hounding me lately and my teeth slowly falling out the levels of my anxiety have been high. I was able to sleep in this morning. I didn’t get out of bed until I absolutely had to in order to go to work. When I got to work I took over the front register but the pharmacy manager came up front and said, “You’re Mine!” So I headed back to pharmacy for my shift. It wasn’t crazy busy back there but by the time techs started leaving I knew why I was needed in the back more than in the front. It’s still not very regulating but it does take my mind of lawyers and teeth. Of course it’s occupied with other “fires,” so pharmacy just shifts my anxiety instead of alleviating it. My prescription chemical relaxation is not as strong as I want it to be, so I think I’ll self medicate tomorrow. But tonight I just want to sleep.
10 March 2023
Latter Day Sinner 