Latter Day Sinner

I am continuing to think about my recent return to beer. I have had it suggested by several people that I should fight the addiction. I have never considered myself an alcoholic. I remember in the highschool DARE program being given two examples of alcohol users. One was a man that sat in the corner sipping at martinis all night. The other was a woman who got so drunk she danced on the tables. The man was an alcoholic and no one was supposed to be like him. The woman was fine. It was healthy to get drunk and dance on tables. I took that lesson a little too much to heart. I binge drank and thought it was okay. At least I wasn’t an alcoholic. I still don’t think I’m an alcoholic after drinking 8 beers in 48 hours. It was a binge though.

But I’m sure you are wondering what that has to do with Facebook. I don’t binge on that. I log in and out all day every day. Sometimes I take a break that lasts as long as a week but I go back to addictive patterns as soon as I let myself get back on. Facebook is a problem and I want to move away from it. If I have an addiction it is to social media. The only habit that even comes close is my obsessive gaming. Video games are a different breed than Facebook though. I don’t even have the illusion that video games are more than just leisure. Facebook almost feels like I’m making a difference sometimes. But when my head is clear I know that that is the illusion. I will resist the temptation to log back into Facebook and share the link to this post. My wife and my mom know I’m on WordPress. The people that know me personally can send a text to my phone if they miss me on social media. Alas I am also addicted to Messenger and I would have to delete it from my phone to be completely free of it. Baby steps. I’m going to try to stay off Facebook until tomorrow.