Capable

What’s the first impression you want to give people?

I have trouble with imposter syndrome. I very often feel that I am not good enough to be where I am doing what I am doing. So I like to get reinforcement that I am enough and that I do enough. When people see me as vital, and charismatic, and intelligent it sometimes helps me to believe I actually am. Of course I’d like to be all those things before someone starts judging me, but I crave that judgement so that I can improve in those areas. If people see me for who I am and still think I’m awesome, it makes me more content.

4 responses to “Capable”

  1. I think you are awesome. I’m sorry that I am not very good at providing you with the validation you crave.

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    1. You love me too much to be an objective observer. I value that love more than probably anything in this world and perhaps the next. But that validation feels more real when it comes from a place of judgement rather than a place of love.

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      1. I’m also much more invested in giving constructive criticism rather than judgment. I think it’s more valuable and more relevant. I am not one of the Judges who really matter.

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      2. Yes, only divine judgement is truly satisfying.

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