Month: February 2025
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Almost Midnight on Saturday
I’m thinking back on the week I’ve had (not too bad) and the month I’ve had (decidedly bad). I’m still blessed. Last night it snowed and this afternoon someone took a snowblower to all the sidewalks on the block and most of my driveway. I had to shovel the ice that the plows pushed into…
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Shopping and Snow Storms
Today I went grocery shopping with my mobility challenged buddy. We got home well before the snow emergency started. So Stephanie went grocery shopping too. I am just finishing a Digiorno pizza and sipping on a THC infused soda. It’s a good night to be stuck in the house. My youngest is sitting next to…
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Phone Calls and Awesome
There’s a song by the group Spose called “I’m Awesome.” It’s all about the ways that the singer is not in fact awesome. One of the lines is that he’s got no voicemail because nobody calls. Sometimes that one in particular makes me sad when no one has called in a while. Today has not…
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Ballroom
In the space between my dreamsMy room began to glow It was a fine glowing mistAs if I was under a street lightOn a dark nightBut the mist had a glow of its ownAnd seemed to be the only source of lightI stood up I was still in my plaid flannel pajamas And bare feetInstead…
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My Mental Health
For those of you just joining me I am a mental health advocate. I take my psych meds every day unless there’s a mix up at the pharmacy. I saw my counselor today and do so about once a month. We talk about the stress of my day to day life, my arguments and anxieties,…
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Back to my Old Habits
Toady I have had sugar, coffee, and… dun dun dun THC. That makes me a sinner in the LDS Church. But I wonder sometimes if it doesn’t make me a better Mormon. Scriptures have always hit differently when I’m high. They say that if you read the whole Bible it’ll make you an atheist. But…
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Where Are All The Gods
I’ve been listening to Holding Out For A Hero and feeling sorry for myself. I’m not a god, or streetwise, or a knight in shining armor, or fresh for the fight, or even larger than life. Sometimes I’d like to be the first one and sometimes the last one, but I’m getting old for combat.…
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The Law is Dead
The idea that we are not saved by the law is a pretty typically Christian one. The Law of Moses is dead. The extension of that is that we are alive in Christ. But I don’t think that only in Christ can we be alive. I think that a Jew who follows the spirit of…
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Following Directions
I learn best by doing things wrong and realizing that I have done them wrong later. Then I do something different and hopefully less wrong. I repeat the process by hopefully again continuing to be incrementally less wrong as I continue to go. This is time consuming and not always productive, but when I have…
Latter Day Sinner 