I was going to go to church this morning. I was going to keep a fast. I might have even gotten up to bear my testimony. Those things sometimes happen. This morning they did not. My youngest got angry and aggressive. It took hours for him to calm down at all and he’s still pretty dysregulated. We don’t know what set him off. What we did know is that I was needed here more than at church. Caregiving is 24/7 and I’m always on call. I had a friend tell me today that love without logic is abuse. I just didn’t get what he meant. I love my big guy beyond logic and sometimes in spite of it.
6 August 2023
Latter Day Sinner 