Tag: church
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Catching a little sleep
I couldn’t fall asleep last night. My thoughts were racing after a phone call with Danny. This is not the life I expected. Neither autism, foreclosure, adult diapers, nor divorce were on my bingo card 30 years ago. And yet here we are. The series of choices that I have made that have led me…
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Acknowledging God
I have gone back to church since Stephanie and I agreed to divorce. In several of the discussions there we’ve been talking about a pattern that is very strange to me. Many people experience more faith in God when times are good and begin to blame Him when things are bad. I am the opposite.…
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Another Church
Brandon and I went to a different church this morning. It’s run by Pastor Dan who has been a friend of mine since highschool. He knows I’m not converting but seemed excited about the possibility that Brandon would want to be baptized. Brandon liked the service and he and Dan got along great. During the…
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Church with Brandon
My oldest son Brandon is inspired by my determination to surrender to God. Today he drove me to church again. He is unfortunately not finding the truth about God that he needs most in Mormonism. The Church can be very strict and he does not need that now. So next week I’m going to go…
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Unrest
The house is quiet right now, but I’m thinking about all the unrest here and abroad. I’m feeling particularly powerless to change any of it. In a few hours it’ll be Fast and Testimony Sunday. I do not have plans to go to church but I intend to fast and pray for a more peaceful…
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Hard Day for Mormons
Today was Fast and Testimony Sunday. I wasn’t planning on going to Sacrament Meeting but I decided to fast anyway. I started my fast at 11 pm Central Time. When I woke up in the morning I got news that the prophet and president of the church had passed away at almost exactly the same…
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Loud Noises
This morning there was a knock on the door. I was half asleep but it was firm and insistent. I got up and one of the brothers from church was calling. We talked for about an hour. Well I talked, he’s a better listener than I am. I let him know how our lives are…
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The Sabbath is for Man
Today I have rested. I haven’t been to church in months because that is anything but restful. I still kick myself for being less productive. Did the gods rest? Do they? Or is divinity 24/7? Men need rest. We are finite and fragile. The eternal and the sublime may recede in certain times and places…
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General Conference April 24
I tried to watch the LDS General Conference sessions today. I have a hard time sitting still when I’m getting a lecture. I also had to take several long breaks to deal with the needs of the family. Of the four hours I probably managed to watch about a half hour here and there. One…
