Latter Day Sinner

I am coming to grips with the fact that I have never been a religious person. My heart just isn’t in it. I am a man of faith however because I know the gods are more diverse than all the books about them. I first started to question Christianity when I was about fourteen or fifteen and got the Dungeons & Dragons book Deities and Demigods. It had the bare bones of about 8 or 10 pantheons. Every deity had hit points and was therefore killable. Notably absent were Jehovah and Jesus. They never really existed in D&D. But they couldn’t be killed by a powerful wizard either.

So that started my real life quest to understand other people’s gods. I have devoured religious literature from a young age. I have learned the rituals of several religions without any intention of practicing them. The best way I can describe it is that some autistics collect Pokemon and learn all their important traits. I collect religious books and learn all their important traits. I know religion but I don’t do it. My autistic fixation is those books.