Category: rant
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Vicariously
I was never subjected to any form of substantial abuse until I joined the military. That was abuse that I volunteered to receive. My childhood was very safe physically. But my parents took in kids that had received substantial abuse. I still wrestle with the psychological effects of being near other children who had been…
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Hypothetical Evil
I don’t like fictional stories where evil wins. I don’t like “what ifs?” about a choice between two evil options. The real world has plenty of actual evil and bad choices. The real world has enough unsolved murder, rape, theft, and lying without making hypothetical evil. Stories that normalize people getting away with crime just…
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The Z Monster
In my part of the USA a colloquial term for sleeping is getting some Zees (ZZZ). In Basic Training we didn’t have the opportunity to sleep well if at all. Sleep was just another enemy to be conquered. We battled the Z monster. If the monster won and we fell asleep when we shouldn’t, there…
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Decompress
I wish I could decompress. I’ve been bouncing back and forth between hyperalert and disengagement. I suppose that is to be expected sometimes with bipolar even on the best days. These have not been the best days. Stephanie has been protecting me from Ben and sadly that doesn’t feel right.
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The Tyrant
Stephanie and I are exhausted and Ben has been a tyrant today. He asked for a bath and when I told him he had to wait he screamed and attacked Alex. He has been demanding and sometimes getting soda all day. He has had enough soda so now we are answering No. He is not…
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Out of Wedlock
I saw a YouTube video about population collapse in Japan. The presenter compared statics between Japan and other industrial nations. The primary point he made is that in Japan out of wedlock births are almost unheard of and that in nations he compared with less pronounced population decline there are a high percentage of out…
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Weary Day
I’m tired but I’m also weary. Some days just sneak up on me and hit me over the head. Nothing particularly bad happened today mind you. I got out of the house, I spent some money, and no one got hurt. But Ether has been clingy and giving him attention drained me. Alex has been…
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Pillaging the Chocolate Fairy
As some of you know Stephanie and I have to ration the soda and chocolate from Ben. He has to request the fairies bring them to him and go to his room for us to talk to them. It’s supposed to be magical. Sadly he has uncovered the secret of the magic and pillaged the…
Latter Day Sinner 