Latter Day Sinner

Some people really hate paying bills. I am the opposite. I like being able to afford things. I get a sense of satisfaction when I spend money on the things that are important to me and the more important something is the more paying for it satisfies me. Stephanie pays most of our bills but she doesn’t enjoy it. She has a business degree so the working theory is that she is better with money than I am. Maybe she will disagree if she sees this. Hopefully she will not do so publicly, but I guess I’m typing about it here so I really can’t fault her if she does so too. At any rate I enjoy paying bills in a way that I do not believe she does. I also think about Danny a lot when I’m spending money. He is the most frugal person I know. He does not approve of me throwing money at problems and has made that clear. When I talk to him about buy something or another he is quick to tell me that I spent too much and got too little. I love him but that annoys me. I have a good relationship with my parents and we couldn’t make it financially without them. But needing to rely on Dad and Mom for money when I’m 56 years old makes me feel like I have consistently failed at adulthood. I like paying bills. I want to earn enough money to pay all my bills. But that is elusive.