Latter Day Sinner

This morning I got a call while my phone was in sleep mode to let me know that Alex’s day program is on hold until everyone gets the Medicaid paperwork in place. Maybe he’ll go back tomorrow maybe it will take a month. I didn’t see the voicemail or the text until after my alarm went off, but there was nothing actionable in it anyway. I got up for Ben to get him diaper, pills, and soda fairy.

Things were quiet for about an hour but Stephanie had to leave for appointments so I was on my own with both boys while she was gone. Ben’s aide was able to pick him up today but he started screaming and had to come home early. He got an emergency pill and said he didn’t want to go back out. He changed the calendars because he forgot last night. After his aide was gone he decided he wanted to go back out. That was a solid No, and he started screaming again. He put on his shoes and coat and ran out through the garage. I rushed to get out of my pajamas and into outside clothes, but I didn’t immediately see him outside. Stephanie was just coming back at that point and when he saw our car he got out of the neighbor’s car where he had been hiding. He came inside with her but was still being loud and demanding. He got a second emergency pill and another soda and settled sufficiently down for me to tell Stephanie what had happened.

He’s quiet. Alex is quiet. Stephanie is zoning out to her TV show and mobile game. And I’m trying to decompress and make sense of my life by typing at you. A lot of my days are like this. It’s just a Wednesday.