Tag: Ben
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Decompress
I wish I could decompress. I’ve been bouncing back and forth between hyperalert and disengagement. I suppose that is to be expected sometimes with bipolar even on the best days. These have not been the best days. Stephanie has been protecting me from Ben and sadly that doesn’t feel right.
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The Tyrant
Stephanie and I are exhausted and Ben has been a tyrant today. He asked for a bath and when I told him he had to wait he screamed and attacked Alex. He has been demanding and sometimes getting soda all day. He has had enough soda so now we are answering No. He is not…
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Pillaging the Chocolate Fairy
As some of you know Stephanie and I have to ration the soda and chocolate from Ben. He has to request the fairies bring them to him and go to his room for us to talk to them. It’s supposed to be magical. Sadly he has uncovered the secret of the magic and pillaged the…
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Rainstorm
Ben requested a bath. I said No because we are in the middle of a heavy rainstorm. Ben asked mama instead and she told me to give him a bath in front of him. Words have power, but that means he can play us against each other. So he is in a bath against my…
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Fresh Air and Kids
Today was pleasant after the rain stopped, so I put the chairs out on the porch. I sat with Ben for awhile and Alex wanted to come out so I got up and let him sit down so I could record the two of them. Alex got bored and went back inside, I got a…
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Pica
Eating things that aren’t food is called pica. I ate paper as a child. I swallowed string. I did some serious damage to my digestive system eating mint flavored toothpicks. Ben inherited pica from me. I saw him picking at a cardboard box and putting tiny scraps in his mouth a few days ago. Yesterday…
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Just a Wednesday
This morning I got a call while my phone was in sleep mode to let me know that Alex’s day program is on hold until everyone gets the Medicaid paperwork in place. Maybe he’ll go back tomorrow maybe it will take a month. I didn’t see the voicemail or the text until after my alarm…
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McDonald’s Chicken Nuggets
I got a refund today and it was enough to get tacos for Stephanie and McDonald’s for Ben and me. He always gets their chicken nuggets. I watched as he opened up the box and then two of the BBQ packets. He set the box down neatly in the lid of the box and dipped…
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He’s technically my boss
Stephanie and I are in a peculiar situation. Alex and Ben are technically our employers. Lutheran Social Services manages the plans, and Premier is in charge of timesheets, but the boys are officially who we are both responsible to and for. So if you ever want to complain about your boss remember that mine says…
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No New Snow
Today has been a quiet day in the house. Stephanie allowed me to sleep in except for the times that Ben did not. My extended family is dealing with city crippling snow storms. Today it didn’t snow here. The gratitude is real.
Latter Day Sinner 