Tag: Ben
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The Last Drop of Water
About a year ago Ben and I had a fight because he put half a bottle of water into his water bottle because that was all that was left in the gallon jug. He tried to pour the half bottle down the drain and I tried to stop him. So he doesn’t like it when…
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Evening Hymns
I had already listened to my daily hymns when Ben asked for pills and soda simultaneously. As I’ve said here before he cannot have both at the same time. Caffeine and Benadryl tend to cancel each other out in his body. So I made him use expressive language to choose between the two. He wanted…
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Turds
Ben usually gets a bath when he wants one. He sat on the toilet before he got in his bath tonight. A storm rolled in and Stephanie suggested that he sounded distressed because of it even though he was in the bath. I checked and he was sitting sideways in the tub with his legs…
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Noticeably Autistic
I was taking out the garbage and recycling, and Ben was pacing on the porch. A stranger walked by with his dog and he stopped. Ben has been reciting lines from the movie Cars. The gentleman said Ben had mouthed something to him. He then asked if Ben was autistic. I told the guy that…
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Alex is Functional
Alex had an assessment recently. He is doing more things on his own so he needs less help from me. It is good for him that he is becoming more functional. On the other hand my hours have been cut again. That is the nature of the beast. Ben is a much more difficult adult…
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Ben and “my” Computer
I came downstairs and read along with the audio of 2 Nephi 2. After I finished it in English I decided to reread it in Spanish. Because I’ve been playing the French in Colonization I decided to see if French audio of the Book of Mormon was available. It is, so I read along with…
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Deep Breaths
I’m taking deep breaths while Ben screams and Stephanie hides in her room with the cats. I am doing a good job remaining calm if I don’t say so myself. Ben is not calming down so he’s had emergency meds. He wants a soda. He has to be calm first. Sadly calm sometimes just means…
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Decompress
I wish I could decompress. I’ve been bouncing back and forth between hyperalert and disengagement. I suppose that is to be expected sometimes with bipolar even on the best days. These have not been the best days. Stephanie has been protecting me from Ben and sadly that doesn’t feel right.
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The Tyrant
Stephanie and I are exhausted and Ben has been a tyrant today. He asked for a bath and when I told him he had to wait he screamed and attacked Alex. He has been demanding and sometimes getting soda all day. He has had enough soda so now we are answering No. He is not…
Latter Day Sinner 