I’m conflicted about whether I love Stephanie. Part of that is whether I actually know her or the deeper question of whether I have ever known her. She can’t stand that she is the object of my affection. Her absence has increased my physical attraction to her. We always want what we can’t have. What I can have is conversations in text. We spent several hours in one of those conversations tonight. She will still give me her time and I love her for that as far as it goes. Maybe I’ll figure out who she is one of these days. It’s too late already though. You don’t know what you’ve got until it is gone.
Latter Day Sinner
Aspiring to Sainthood
Loving Her
8 responses to “Loving Her”
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It’s strange that our conversations keep coming back to idolatry. Avoiding idolizing people and things entirely is starting to seem like an impossible standard the way never dehumanizing people is. I simply don’t believe absolutes are possible in this world and have to wait for the next one to see if 100% of anything is possible in any world.
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People aren’t objects just because you like to use us.
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You don’t value people that aren’t useful to you. That’s your choice. It doesn’t make valuing people as people impossible. It just makes you a user.
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People have value whether they are useful to me or not. That is not what I am thinking about. But I do think about their value to me specifically. I will never love you purely out of the kindness of my heart. I want to be able to rely on you for things. I also want you to be able to rely on me for things. That doesn’t make me a user.
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