Tag: love
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Loving Her
I’m conflicted about whether I love Stephanie. Part of that is whether I actually know her or the deeper question of whether I have ever known her. She can’t stand that she is the object of my affection. Her absence has increased my physical attraction to her. We always want what we can’t have. What…
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Cat Naps
Last night I stayed up later than I should have playing a video game. I turned it off at about 11:30 and was settled into bed by midnight. But Magic wanted to be near me once I was settled. She jumped up on the dresser next to my bed and groomed herself. As she spread…
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Land of the Lost
I just finished the first season of Land of the Lost. In the final episode “Circle” the Marshalls make it home. I had no clear memory that they had escaped the Land of the Lost, and that’s probably because there were two more seasons which just ignored the true ending. That’s good business considering the…
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Stay
Why do I want her to stay? Stephanie says we are divorced and that the marriage we had is not worth fighting for. She asked me why I want her to stay. There are certainly selfish reasons. I appreciate her womanhood, but that’s objectifying. I appreciate her familiarity but that has been dying of late.…
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Stacks of Books
Alex is sitting across the room from me in the easy chair. He had taken all the books off the shelf next to him and made a pile in his lap taller than his head. He loves stacks of books. He has many. Some of them become his permanently. This one probably won’t. Oddly enough…
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Suffering, Struggle, and Gratitude
I have an online friend who wants to eliminate suffering. All suffering if possible. I reject the idea that this is possible. She and I for instance agree that we live in a war universe. We also agree that war is chocked full of innocent bystanders. So my argument is that we would have to…
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The Sweetest Thing
Brandon and William came over tonight. Brandon’s girlfriend LeeAnn was with The four boys, Stephanie, and me. Ben had a very hard time watching the movie with us but he let it play when everybody else did. After everyone went home I asked Ben if he had fun with Brandon and Will? He answered “love…
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Emotional Invested Arguing
There are people I care about that are wrong. I don’t think it matters how clearly or passionately I argue my case that they will see why they are wrong. Perhaps when I point the finger three fingers are pointing back at me. I am however convinced that truth exists and that I have better…
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Skins
One of the people I love was hurt today. It was very intentional on the part of the attacker. I have trouble humanizing people like that. I don’t think they are even human today. Lower than pond scum. I looked up one of my favorite verses in the Quran and studied the Arabic. It basically…
Latter Day Sinner 