Category: rant
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Wrong Room
I miss being the smartest guy in the room. I try to have adult conversations but I just can’t. I’m not a rational man and I’m finding it harder to pretend I am. And why should I pretend? Why can I give myself the grace that I would give to anyone on antipsychotics. I want…
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Uncomfortable
I have developed an obnoxious problem. I am uncomfortable when I try to sleep. My back hurts when I’m laying in bed. My reflux gets worse the longer I sleep. It takes a few minutes to get up for everything to settle down, but if I am standing up or sitting up straight and especially…
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Machzu
When I was five or six our family had a dog. I don’t remember the dog’s actual name. I remember my mom yelling “Machzu” at it. I was vaguely aware that it was supposed to be German. I am convinced that she was butchering “Mach deinen mund zu” which translates as “Shut up.” the dog’s…
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Body Machine
It’s been a long day. The boys woke me up early. I did my chores. I’m blowing right on schedule. When all the garbage and recycling was out I locked the door and turned off the light. Then I got into my jammies. I’ve watched some YouTube today while Ben was out. I chatted on…
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Life with Autism
I have four sons. They are all adults now. The oldest is from a woman I never married. When she got pregnant she asked about an abortion and I gave her a fast and firm no. She broke off the relationship but kept the child. We have over the years mostly been civil. Brandon is…
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Debate
I have never taken a debate class. I am only vaguely aware of the rules of debate. I like to argue. I like to fight. I had a drill sergeant tell me once if you aren’t willing to cheat then you don’t really want to win. This disturbs people who think I am having a…
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Mediator
One of the things which I am more convinced than not about Judgment Day is that Jesus is the mediator not the judge. For some this is a contentious point of view. The Book of Mormon teaches in some verses that Jesus is in fact the mediator for us with the Father and in others…
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Everyone Wants Jesus…
Everyone wants Jesus to be some specific thing of their choosing. A Christ, or a Messiah, or a Prophet. A white man, a black man, or a yellow man. A socialist, a feminist, or an individualist. And don’t forget the people that don’t want him to be at all. A lie, a fairy tale, or…
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Lolth
I’ve been accused by several people who will remain nameless that I spend too much time on politics and religion. I haven’t read any fiction in a long time. So I went looking for a non serious book to read. In highschool my favorite D&D module was The Queen of the Demonweb Pits where the…
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Refresh The Litter Boxes
We have three cats. They have three litter boxes. There is one on each floor. Unfortunately the doors don’t stay open upstairs or to the basement. So most of the time the cats have effectively one litter box. If I only change it on garbage day they shit on the floor. They have been shitting…
Latter Day Sinner 