Month: February 2026
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Esoteric Wisdom
The best advice I have ever been given is not to listen to people who say you can’t do something because they can’t do it themselves. I’m still friends with the theater teacher from highschool that told me that. I need to thank him for that again. He’s a good guy. I hope he doesn’t…
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Executive Functioning
I don’t have great executive functioning. I struggle with organizing things in my space. I’ve played too many video games that all look like urban sprawl. My room looks like urban sprawl. But my trouble organizing people is far more significant. I remember listening to a book on a cassette tape where the author said…
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Wrong Room
I miss being the smartest guy in the room. I try to have adult conversations but I just can’t. I’m not a rational man and I’m finding it harder to pretend I am. And why should I pretend? Why can I give myself the grace that I would give to anyone on antipsychotics. I want…
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Uncomfortable
I have developed an obnoxious problem. I am uncomfortable when I try to sleep. My back hurts when I’m laying in bed. My reflux gets worse the longer I sleep. It takes a few minutes to get up for everything to settle down, but if I am standing up or sitting up straight and especially…
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My Valentine 26
Stephanie let me sleep today. I have only been awake for three hours and it’s already time to blog. Not much has happened yet. I didn’t get her a Valentine’s Day present. Perhaps I should do better.
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Machzu
When I was five or six our family had a dog. I don’t remember the dog’s actual name. I remember my mom yelling “Machzu” at it. I was vaguely aware that it was supposed to be German. I am convinced that she was butchering “Mach deinen mund zu” which translates as “Shut up.” the dog’s…
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Body Machine
It’s been a long day. The boys woke me up early. I did my chores. I’m blowing right on schedule. When all the garbage and recycling was out I locked the door and turned off the light. Then I got into my jammies. I’ve watched some YouTube today while Ben was out. I chatted on…
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Life with Autism
I have four sons. They are all adults now. The oldest is from a woman I never married. When she got pregnant she asked about an abortion and I gave her a fast and firm no. She broke off the relationship but kept the child. We have over the years mostly been civil. Brandon is…
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Wild Turkeys
We have wild turkeys roaming the city streets. They can not be shot in town and outside of town they can only be shot at certain times of the year. There is a quota of turkey kills for each area of Wisconsin. The herd has to be culled. This ensures to things. First, it prevents…
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Debate
I have never taken a debate class. I am only vaguely aware of the rules of debate. I like to argue. I like to fight. I had a drill sergeant tell me once if you aren’t willing to cheat then you don’t really want to win. This disturbs people who think I am having a…
Latter Day Sinner 