Month: February 2026
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Unrest
The house is quiet right now, but I’m thinking about all the unrest here and abroad. I’m feeling particularly powerless to change any of it. In a few hours it’ll be Fast and Testimony Sunday. I do not have plans to go to church but I intend to fast and pray for a more peaceful…
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Works Alone
Tonight I am a little high. That usually makes me a bit more Trinitarian, but tonight I am finding myself rejecting God. Not just my usual “God’s grace doesn’t exist” but rather a full blown case of “There are no gods and only my labor can save me.” Get better every day through effort every…
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Diced Almonds
Stephanie just went and got a pint of ice cream for each of us. She bought plain chocolate for me and a jamocha blend for herself. Her ice cream looked good but she said it had chunks. I asked what kind and she told me there were diced almonds in it. I agreed that I…
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Tamed
I was a very free man a long time ago. I sometimes describe that time in my life as living on the edge of society in the center of town. I also sometimes describe it as my gray period. I did a lot of soul searching when I was left to my own devices. I…
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Wearing My Food
I am a sloppy eater. That hasn’t always been the case. In my grey period I read a book that said if every person wasted one grain of rice that waste could have fed a small village for years. I didn’t want to let a crumb food go to waste. I certainly didn’t like throwing…
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Restricted
A friend of mine on Facebook posted a picture of a neighborhood with modular homes with a bunch of depressing stuff people would think about there. He ended the post with “at least there’s no drugs.” I answered I would definitely have to do drugs there. My comment was removed immediately and my appeal was…
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The Long Weekend
Stephanie went to Indiana and made a stop in Michigan. She was gone for 48 hours. The boys and I survived. Alex had a meltdown and Ben had a meltdown. Fortunately it was not at the same time. I’m scratched up, very tired, and so glad Stephanie is home. But I forgot to fast before…
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Rich
I had a very short conversation about Mork from Ork saying that if he made people happy his life was rich. In retrospect I find that sad. Robin Williams certainly made a lot of people happy, but in the end they treated him like dirt. I don’t make a lot of people happy but I…
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He’s technically my boss
Stephanie and I are in a peculiar situation. Alex and Ben are technically our employers. Lutheran Social Services manages the plans, and Premier is in charge of timesheets, but the boys are officially who we are both responsible to and for. So if you ever want to complain about your boss remember that mine says…
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My Mental Health
I saw my therapist today. We had lots to talk about. I missed my last appointment because the SUV was not functioning. I told him that January was a long year. I try to prioritize my mental health. But I also sometimes want to be a god king. Fortunately I’m lousy at the latter rather…
Latter Day Sinner 