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Torn Up
“Thy dross to consume and thy gold to refine.” -How Firm a Foundation I hope that all the battering that life is doing to me really will work out for my own good. The week is almost over and hopefully the new one will be better. As I say often: The struggle is real and…
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Simpler Time
I’m sitting on a lawn chair in front of the house. It rained a little this morning. Ben and I walked to the convenience store but we only got a few sprinkles. He’s been just as ornery today as he has been since the breaker failed. That was days ago. The weather is pleasant. It…
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Dumping Soda
Ben came home from respite dysregulated. He was not done at the park and requested it multiple times in the past few hours. He sat in the car to protest that we are not taking him anywhere. He requested a bath and got one. He has requested the Soda Fairy and gotten that. Sadly he…
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Electrician
All the lights are back on. It took four or five hours for the electrician to fix most of it. The main breaker was expired, the thermal photo rated it at 180 degrees Fahrenheit, so it had to be replaced. That is a temporary fix. Replacing it with a new one will take a whole…
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Broken Breaker
Tonight as he often does Ben requested a light bulb. Stephanie changed the one that dysregulated him but it did not turn back on. As I examined the situation I noticed that several other lights were out. I went down and one of the breakers in our electrical box had tripped. I switched it back…
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Too Many Video Games?
I am a first generation commercial gamer. I played the Atari when it came out at seven. By twelve I had branched out to Dungeons & Dragons. A few years later I worked all summer to afford a Commodore 64, a disk drive, a cassette recorder, and enough games to keep me out of any…
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If We Now Shun The Fight
I listen to LDS hymns almost every day. One of my favorites is Come, Come, Ye Saints. I was listening to it sitting on my cell phone while sitting in my easy chair. It came to the line, “Why should we think to earn a great reward/ If we now shun the fight?” I was…
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The Soda Fairy at 2 am
We ration soda in the house. We have convinced Ben that if he wants a can he has to wait in his room until I can talk to the soda fairy. At about two in the morning he came into my room and said, “Soda Fairy, please.” I told him he had to wait until…
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Today was Hard
My youngest son started screaming this morning. I don’t know why. I gave him his morning pills and that helped for a while. But his dysregulation returned pretty quickly. He was screaming again an hour later and got an emergency pill. He went out to sit in the car, honked the horn for a few…
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Black Cat on a Friday Night
It’s 10 pm and Ether is still outside. That always concerns Stephanie and me a bit. But tonight in particular Ben is anxious that the cat is out. He doesn’t like the cats outside but has come to accept it during the day. But at night they all need to be inside for him to…