Tag: struggle
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Degrees of Order
There is chaos in the system. Imperfections. We recognize order because we have chaos for a comparison. We understand degrees of order when we understand degrees of disorder. Entropy is real. Everything cascades to chaos. Heat death. Human beings see entropy and we struggle against it. We imagine forms of life where our thoughts and…
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Keeping Things Clean
Now that I have zero expectation that someone else is going to do any of the housework, I have accepted the struggle of keeping things clean by myself. I did the dishes today. I need to do them about once a week. The boys and I used a lot of disposable plates and silverware, so…
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Hot and Cold
The weather is hot but the atmosphere is cold. We are alive but uncomfortable in more ways than one. Most of the work that needed to get done today has gotten done. Life goes on because we make the effort for it to go on. The struggle is real and necessary but so is the…
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Bottlecaps
I just started a beer. I had an insignificant amount of trouble opening the bottle cap. It got me thinking of the video game Fallout. It’s a post-apocalyptic world where bottlecaps have become the primary currency. I don’t know how hard they are to make in this world but in the world of Fallout they…
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Suffering, Struggle, and Gratitude
I have an online friend who wants to eliminate suffering. All suffering if possible. I reject the idea that this is possible. She and I for instance agree that we live in a war universe. We also agree that war is chocked full of innocent bystanders. So my argument is that we would have to…
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Cold Pricklies
Stephanie and I are in a long term argument about whether I argue too much. When I was little I had a book that taught me about giving people warm fuzzies and not giving them cold pricklies. It, like most of my childhood, created a very unrealistic expectation of my capabilities as an adult. I…
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Easy Chair 26
I have spent most of the time I have been awake today in my easy chair or going to or from it. I am still in last night’s jammies. And yet I have been relatively productive. I can do a lot from my phone: reading, writing, art, and most importantly checking up on family and…
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Staring into the Void
I spend to much time looking at screens. I’ve got a top notch personal computer, a decent cell phone, and a Fire TV. I’m thinking about all the empty white space on this webpage. I am staring into the void and wondering how to fill it. If you are here you probably stare into the…
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Real and Necessary
Today started with a struggle. Stephanie went on vacation and the boys are a handful on my own. But she came home early because she found herself and didn’t like the experience of being completely alone. But the struggle turned into gratitude for each other.
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Getting Older
We are all rushing toward death. Some days I can feel that more than others. The ride hasn’t been a gentle one for me. It’s always something. Perhaps I am not an outlier. Everyone works and everyone worries. I should not make that into a competition but I usually do. My life hasn’t been bad…
