Tag: Ben
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Alex is Functional
Alex had an assessment recently. He is doing more things on his own so he needs less help from me. It is good for him that he is becoming more functional. On the other hand my hours have been cut again. That is the nature of the beast. Ben is a much more difficult adult…
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Ben and “my” Computer
I came downstairs and read along with the audio of 2 Nephi 2. After I finished it in English I decided to reread it in Spanish. Because I’ve been playing the French in Colonization I decided to see if French audio of the Book of Mormon was available. It is, so I read along with…
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Deep Breaths
I’m taking deep breaths while Ben screams and Stephanie hides in her room with the cats. I am doing a good job remaining calm if I don’t say so myself. Ben is not calming down so he’s had emergency meds. He wants a soda. He has to be calm first. Sadly calm sometimes just means…
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Decompress
I wish I could decompress. I’ve been bouncing back and forth between hyperalert and disengagement. I suppose that is to be expected sometimes with bipolar even on the best days. These have not been the best days. Stephanie has been protecting me from Ben and sadly that doesn’t feel right.
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The Tyrant
Stephanie and I are exhausted and Ben has been a tyrant today. He asked for a bath and when I told him he had to wait he screamed and attacked Alex. He has been demanding and sometimes getting soda all day. He has had enough soda so now we are answering No. He is not…
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Pillaging the Chocolate Fairy
As some of you know Stephanie and I have to ration the soda and chocolate from Ben. He has to request the fairies bring them to him and go to his room for us to talk to them. It’s supposed to be magical. Sadly he has uncovered the secret of the magic and pillaged the…
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Rainstorm
Ben requested a bath. I said No because we are in the middle of a heavy rainstorm. Ben asked mama instead and she told me to give him a bath in front of him. Words have power, but that means he can play us against each other. So he is in a bath against my…
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Fresh Air and Kids
Today was pleasant after the rain stopped, so I put the chairs out on the porch. I sat with Ben for awhile and Alex wanted to come out so I got up and let him sit down so I could record the two of them. Alex got bored and went back inside, I got a…
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Pica
Eating things that aren’t food is called pica. I ate paper as a child. I swallowed string. I did some serious damage to my digestive system eating mint flavored toothpicks. Ben inherited pica from me. I saw him picking at a cardboard box and putting tiny scraps in his mouth a few days ago. Yesterday…
Latter Day Sinner 