Tag: psych meds
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Chemicals
I’m feeling off today. I’ve been taking my psych meds at erratic times and in the past couple of weeks I’ve been self medicating. I’m too old to be treating my body like a chemistry experiment. And it’s not like anyone actually wants to party with me. I’m not feeling very nice. I mean that…
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Weak
I like to remind myself that everything “down there” works because in some ways I’m not much of a man in other ways. I’m weak. Maybe I always have been and am only becoming reconciled with it now. When I was living on my own I had a friend who said I seemed weak. I…
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36 Hours
36 Hours is the longest I’ve been awake in a long time. It’s been a good day, night, and another day. I need to take my psych meds and eat. Hopefully I can sleep after that. It obviously didn’t work last night though.
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Too Tired
I am always tired. I would feel more justified if I were getting very much done. I bring it up now because the electricians are coming at 7:30 tomorrow morning. I’ve changed my bedding and taken a shower. I still have to wait to take my psych meds and then wait more to eat because…
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Ramblings
I missed my pills most of the week. That always makes my life feel shaky. Being dependent on psych meds also makes me feel weak. I’m not doing my part to keep civilization going. I can barely keep my own life straight no less help others straighten theirs. And these infernal machines consume me. When…
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12 minutes into Easter
It’s Easter. In Jerusalem it’s probably already morning and the tomb is empty. It’s a little after midnight here. A long time and a long way off from the resurrection of Jesus Christ. My brain is mush. Held together with very modern psych meds. Jesus isn’t going to change that. I wonder if his going…
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My Mental Health
For those of you just joining me I am a mental health advocate. I take my psych meds every day unless there’s a mix up at the pharmacy. I saw my counselor today and do so about once a month. We talk about the stress of my day to day life, my arguments and anxieties,…
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One Month Sober
I have been alcohol and THC free for exactly a month. I have however drank a river of coffee in that time. My brain is also being held together by science in the form of psych meds, but I try not to think of that as doing drugs.
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Sobriety Today
I have been substance free for a little over two weeks if I do not count caffeine. I do not count caffeine. There are also my prescription psychiatric medications. But I haven’t had any alcohol or THC since two Mondays ago. That’s got to count for something.
Latter Day Sinner 