Tag: control
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Acknowledging God
I have gone back to church since Stephanie and I agreed to divorce. In several of the discussions there we’ve been talking about a pattern that is very strange to me. Many people experience more faith in God when times are good and begin to blame Him when things are bad. I am the opposite.…
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The Least Restrictive Environment
For people with disabilities one of the most important considerations after self direction is providing them with the least restrictive environment. Up until very recently when Stephanie moved into a motel everyone was in agreement that the least restrictive environment for Alex and Ben is in the house that we are buying for them and…
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The Illusion of Individuality
Individuals have very little actual control over their environment. For instance we are getting a new air conditioner to go in our central service. I could not make and install an air conditioner myself. A lot of someone elses built it, several someone elses will install it, and someone other than that is paying for…
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Letting God
I am contemplating the idea of “Letting go and letting God.” My life is in turmoil. Those who are closest to me know the details so I will not continue to post them publicly. I am painfully aware that I am not in control of anyone else and I am surrendering even my own will…
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My Health Starts with Me
I saw the nurse practitioner who prescribes my psych meds yesterday. No changes on that front, but she did order a blood draw. I walked to the hospital to get the work done today because Stephanie wasn’t up to driving and my health starts with me. It went smoothly but the results came back with…
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Zero Mobile Games
Yesterday I deleted the last mobile game I had left on my phone. Theoretically that should give me more time to do productive things. And yet it’s taken me until 7pm to do this blog post about theoretically being more productive. I still need to work on some digital art tonight. I sit here stoned…
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Who’s to Blame?
Are you holding a grudge? About? I don’t have any grudges against people except possibly myself. I constantly perseverate over the dumb things I have done in my life. From the little things I shouldn’t have done to the things I wish I had said. I think it’s a common experience to be harder on…
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Hot Noon
South Central Wisconsin is hot today. Unusually hot. Whether it is just the weather or the dreaded rise in global mean temperature is one that I sometimes contemplate. But it always comes down to how much people can control versus how much we think we can control. The former is always much smaller than the…
Latter Day Sinner 