Tag: Stephanie
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Talking to Myself
Stephanie doesn’t live here anymore, so I am pacing and talking to myself way more often than I had been. I occasionally get a call from a friend. I appreciate those conversations. I’m even answering spam calls. They are mostly for Stephanie and I tell them she doesn’t live here and to remove the number…
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Fighting
Ether didn’t come in the house tonight until Stephanie called him. He’d been fighting so she rubbed beeswax in the tender areas. Ether likes to fight. I joked that I do too but neither one of us is any good at it. I need to continue to ask Jesus to take away my fighting disposition.…
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Air Conditioning
We got that air conditioner. It works as advertised. The house has been 78 degrees since we turned it on. I read somewhere that cognitive function declines when the body overheats. I told Stephanie that I was sorry for the things I said when I was too hot to know better. She did not appreciate…
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Stay
Why do I want her to stay? Stephanie says we are divorced and that the marriage we had is not worth fighting for. She asked me why I want her to stay. There are certainly selfish reasons. I appreciate her womanhood, but that’s objectifying. I appreciate her familiarity but that has been dying of late.…
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Dissociation
If you read yesterday’s posts you may guess that Stephanie was none too happy with me about getting laser focused on Final Fantasy. She doesn’t for obvious reasons like being considered a “distraction.” The language that she used was that I dissociate. Apparently that is a bigger problem than I realized and far more general…
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Lazy Weekends
Stephanie has been getting up in the morning so I don’t have to do so. Oddly she doesn’t bill on the weekends so Saturday and Sunday are technically her days off. But my days off are Monday and Tuesday, and I still work. Caregiving is on call 24/7. I am still ending up being lazy…
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Time with William
William came over today just to hang out. We talked for a bit until I got a call from Danny. Stephanie told me to get off the phone and I did. I offered to put in a movie for William and me, but he wasn’t interested. We talked a little more and then he had…
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Turds
Ben usually gets a bath when he wants one. He sat on the toilet before he got in his bath tonight. A storm rolled in and Stephanie suggested that he sounded distressed because of it even though he was in the bath. I checked and he was sitting sideways in the tub with his legs…
Latter Day Sinner 