Tag: Stephanie
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Deep Breaths
I’m taking deep breaths while Ben screams and Stephanie hides in her room with the cats. I am doing a good job remaining calm if I don’t say so myself. Ben is not calming down so he’s had emergency meds. He wants a soda. He has to be calm first. Sadly calm sometimes just means…
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Drink More Water
I had a Dunkin Donuts latte today and a large cold brew horchata from a new Mexican restaurant. That was I found the hard way too much caffeine and sugar. I crashed out from them. Stephanie was able to let me sleep off the crash, and I hope to be able to go back to…
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Esta Mal
This morning there were men working on the trees. The whole block had a line of trucks on the curb. It is unfortunately also the morning that garbage and recycling gets collected and the men moved the bins out of their way and onto the lawn. I went out to talk to the men to…
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Changing the Lightbulb
There’s an old joke: How many psychiatrists does it take to change a lightbulb? Only one, but it will take a long time, cost a lot of money, and the lightbulb has to really want to change. Change is hard. It’s harder if we resist it. Sometimes resisting change is the correct thing to do.…
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Decompress
I wish I could decompress. I’ve been bouncing back and forth between hyperalert and disengagement. I suppose that is to be expected sometimes with bipolar even on the best days. These have not been the best days. Stephanie has been protecting me from Ben and sadly that doesn’t feel right.
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The Tyrant
Stephanie and I are exhausted and Ben has been a tyrant today. He asked for a bath and when I told him he had to wait he screamed and attacked Alex. He has been demanding and sometimes getting soda all day. He has had enough soda so now we are answering No. He is not…
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Pillaging the Chocolate Fairy
As some of you know Stephanie and I have to ration the soda and chocolate from Ben. He has to request the fairies bring them to him and go to his room for us to talk to them. It’s supposed to be magical. Sadly he has uncovered the secret of the magic and pillaged the…
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Fruit Punch
I’ve been craving sugar. Stephanie gets me a highly sweetened fruit punch from the grocery store. Sadly Alex loves the stuff too and finished it off last night. We ordered fast food and I was supposed to get a milkshake but it was missing from the order. So I’m still craving sugar.
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Botox
Stephanie got another Botox shot today. For a frame of reference this is what Wikipedia has to say about it. “Botulinum toxin, botulinum neurotoxin, or botox is a neurotoxic protein produced by the bacterium Clostridium botulinum and related species, and it is considered the deadliest known natural substance ever recorded in the chemical literature.” I…
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Too Much Caffeine
Stephanie drinks a lot of caffeine because it helps with her ADHD. Sometimes I am foolish enough to try to keep up. In the past 24 hours I have had too much caffeine. I am shaky. There’s not a lot I can do but wait until it is out of my system. I took a…
Latter Day Sinner 