Category: rant
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Breakup Songs
Over the years and especially in the 80s and 90s I learned a lot of breakup songs. I just finished listening to Niel Diamond and Barbara Streisand sing “You Don’t Bring Me Flowers.” It brought tears to my eyes. This divorce is only the third real breakup in my life. The first was Delia. We…
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Special
The world currently runs on an extreme specialization of labor. Some people are just more special than others. I don’t have a specialization so I am less special. I certainly contribute value by keeping my children fed and clothed, but they are my responsibility, so while I am special to them, I am not special…
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Moving Boxes
I miss my wife but I don’t think that woman exists anymore. Someone who looks like her comes to spend time with the kids. But she leaves every night to live in a motel. She says I’m toxic and abusive. So all that’s left of her in the home is her moving boxes to take…
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Cassettes from the 80s
I got a package of cassettes today. It feels strange to be paying the same prices as I did back then. A person like me could buy entire lots of cassette tapes and vinyl records for a few dollars at a garage sale a decade ago. Now they are commodities again. It’s good music. Ben…
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Bedtime Requests
Ben knows I won’t give him pills and light off before 9pm. He’s been watching the clock to get his meds as soon as I’m willing to give them to him. He gets up early, and if he gets pills too early then he gets up too early. Alex has been noticing the pattern. Ben…
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Draining
Being an adult is draining, but it goes more smoothly if the drain works. Last Ether decided to lay on top of me as soon as I turned off all the lights and went to bed. When I shifted positions so did he. This went on for about an hour, and when he was done…
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Skeeball
My parents are on Mackinac Island, Michigan. When I was about seven or eight we went there as a family. There was an amazing game there that I had a lot of fun playing. I didn’t have a name for it to request it later. And as a kid I had only ever seen it…
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Abundance
I have a meditation tape that is just titled Abundance. It asks me to visualize what I want to have in more abundance. Financial security is what I’ve been answering to myself lately. But it also asks harder questions. What qualities do I need for the kind of abundance I desire and what qualities do…
