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Weakness
It’s said that a person who cannot choose violence is only weak and that only a person who can choose violence but does not deserves to be called gentle. I have been meditating on my own weaknesses today. My health is average so I can’t claim any significant physical advantage if I were forced to…
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Just One Beer
Danny bought me a six pack tonight but I was only able to drink one. I had it with a bowl of lasagna and they made me tired. Danny went home early because he was tired too. Lord do we know how to party. LoL
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The Prevalence of Autism
I was having a conversation with a friend who works primarily with disability advocacy and bureaucracy. We were discussing the rise in autism diagnoses. The prevalence of autism has become much higher. Or has it? The diagnostic criteria has changed significantly in the past twenty years. So have the incentives for testing. Are we really…
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Slept Too Hard Again
It’s 3:20 pm Central Daylight Time. I woke up twenty minutes ago. My life is exhausting. Stephanie picked up my slack, so the boys got the care they needed, but crashing out like this makes me feel like a loser. But at least Mondays are technically my day off so I don’t have to adjust…
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Forgot to Fast
At five minutes after midnight last night I opened the LDS Study App. The hymns for our Sacrament Service appear on Sundays. The first hymn of today’s meeting was about the blessings of fasting. I was currently eating a midnight snack and finished it because I could in theory start a fast. I went to…
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Murdered for Treason
If you are reading my blog you probably already know I am a Mormon. I am also a US citizen in that order. Kind of like the Apostle Paul was a Christian first and a Roman citizen second. And as Paul admitted that he was in no way the equal of Jesus Christ, I admit…
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Perseverating on God
Perseverate:(verb, intransitive, chiefly psychology) To persist in doing something; to continue to repeat an action after the original stimulus has ended. I am on the autism spectrum. One of the things about most of us is that we perseverate on things. Some autistics perseverate on Legos, or trains, or scripts from movies and songs. I…
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Struggle and Gratitude
I have been saying “The struggle is real but so is the gratitude” a lot lately. It is my own phrase though in the end it will probably be misattributed to Aristotle or Confucius. But I’ll spell out what it means to me right now in this moment. The word struggle is deeply tied to…
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Bins and Boxes and a Cat
I’ve been cleaning up more than usual today. I picked up Alex’s floor which is a bigger task than it sounds. I cleaned all three litter boxes because they really needed it since I’ve been putting it off. I took the diaper garbage to the bins and the bins to the curb. I even took…