Tag: God
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Acknowledging God
I have gone back to church since Stephanie and I agreed to divorce. In several of the discussions there we’ve been talking about a pattern that is very strange to me. Many people experience more faith in God when times are good and begin to blame Him when things are bad. I am the opposite.…
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I Am Doing
With the divorce looming I am regularly asked how I’m doing. Materially I’m in good shape. Stephanie and I agreed that since I’d be staying in the house with our disabled children and she would not that I would get the bulk of the caregiving hours. I can afford everything we need and have modest…
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Too Much Spam
When Stephanie moved out I had to start doing grocery shopping for the family. That hasn’t proved too problematic but I’m not gonna to lie that there has been something of a learning curve. I like Spam (the kind from Hormel – not electronic spam). I bought four cans in my first grocery order. I…
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Church with Brandon
My oldest son Brandon is inspired by my determination to surrender to God. Today he drove me to church again. He is unfortunately not finding the truth about God that he needs most in Mormonism. The Church can be very strict and he does not need that now. So next week I’m going to go…
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Intimidation
I can be very intimidating. I have the ability to seem much more violent than I can actually be. My bark is far worse than my bite. That usually serves me effectively. I’ve never killed anyone nor do I want to do so. I have 1st Nephi in the back of my head that if…
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Incrementalism
2 Nephi 28:30 “For behold, thus saith the Lord God: I will give unto the children of men line upon line, precept upon precept, here a little and there a little; and blessed are those who hearken unto my precepts, and lend an ear unto my counsel, for they shall learn wisdom; for unto him…
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Therapy
I saw my counselor today. I told him above the divorce and that the only sincere apology I can make is changed behavior. Letting go and letting God. No more beer, no more THC, no more masturbation. I buried my weapons of war. She told me at some point this week that she hopes I…
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Hurt
“I will let you down. I will make you hurt.” – Johnny Cash 100% is a tall order. Doing something 100% of the time is impossible without God. Not doing something 100% of the time is also impossible without God. If the standard is perfection which 100% is, then I will let you down and…
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Letting God
I am contemplating the idea of “Letting go and letting God.” My life is in turmoil. Those who are closest to me know the details so I will not continue to post them publicly. I am painfully aware that I am not in control of anyone else and I am surrendering even my own will…
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God and my Wife
I gave a piece of advice to my oldest son Brandon today. His girlfriend wants him to be more holy. I agreed with her. But more importantly I think God agrees with her, so I told him if God and his girlfriend agree that he’d better pay attention. This theology has created a stable marriage…
Latter Day Sinner 