Tag: God
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Temple Worthiness
I wrote the bishop of our local LDS ward about what is going on in my life. Divorce is hard. Getting to Sacrament Meetings is hard. But zero beer and THC has been better than using. I’m also not trying to screw around. When the divorce is final I might marry again. But I’m absolutely…
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Idle Judgment
I wish to be judged by history. But that is an idle judgment. It happens after the fact. The judgments of God are ongoing. When I misunderstand His will I often begin to see the repercussions form quickly as I am acting wrongly. When I knowingly seek to do the opposite of His will I…
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The God of Israel
Three years ago today Hamas massacred Israeli civilians. I spent a minute in silence to remember the horrific attack. And then Israel went to war to defend itself. Now it is being blamed for committing the atrocities that it suffered. It is milenia old blood libel yet again. But God is with the Jews more…
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General Conference O26
I watched almost all of the Sunday sessions of the General Conference of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints today. President Oaks wants me to be a peacemaker. Peacemakers don’t bring a spirit of contention with them wherever they go. Peacemakers aren’t crude and gross. It is impossible for me to change…
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Sobriety
I have been clean and sober for two months today. Beer and THC are liabilities. I just can’t be intoxicated alone in the house with the kids. Intoxicants are also against my religion and I have been learning much harder into my religion in the past few months. It’s easier for me to think God…
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Counseling 9 1 26
I had a counseling appointment today. Stephanie and I are still on speaking terms so she gave me a ride to it when she picked up Ben. My counselor and I mostly talked about the upcoming divorce. Stephanie has exactly 3 months to change her mind and change mine. All the paperwork is signed and…
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Acknowledging God
I have gone back to church since Stephanie and I agreed to divorce. In several of the discussions there we’ve been talking about a pattern that is very strange to me. Many people experience more faith in God when times are good and begin to blame Him when things are bad. I am the opposite.…
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I Am Doing
With the divorce looming I am regularly asked how I’m doing. Materially I’m in good shape. Stephanie and I agreed that since I’d be staying in the house with our disabled children and she would not that I would get the bulk of the caregiving hours. I can afford everything we need and have modest…
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Too Much Spam
When Stephanie moved out I had to start doing grocery shopping for the family. That hasn’t proved too problematic but I’m not gonna to lie that there has been something of a learning curve. I like Spam (the kind from Hormel – not electronic spam). I bought four cans in my first grocery order. I…
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Church with Brandon
My oldest son Brandon is inspired by my determination to surrender to God. Today he drove me to church again. He is unfortunately not finding the truth about God that he needs most in Mormonism. The Church can be very strict and he does not need that now. So next week I’m going to go…
