Month: October 2026
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In Case of Emergency
Stephanie is stuck at the motel without a vehicle. I have been overly reliant on her driving for our entire marriage. I can and do get rides from other people, but again that relies on her being in the house for the boys. I have a plan in case of emergency, but I will share…
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Up Late
My sleep hygiene says I need to be in bed by 11 pm. My mobile game says I need to start the new day at 11 pm. The game usually wins. I’ve also got Alex’s Kindle to turn off at 11 pm. I’ve decided that it is not fair to make him change into a…
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Idle Judgment
I wish to be judged by history. But that is an idle judgment. It happens after the fact. The judgments of God are ongoing. When I misunderstand His will I often begin to see the repercussions form quickly as I am acting wrongly. When I knowingly seek to do the opposite of His will I…
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Listening to Bach
I spent $15 for 10 random classical music vinyls. In the collection was a set of Brandenburg Concertos. So Ben and I are listening to Bach. I’ve explained harpsichords and violins to him. He doesn’t want to miss a thing when I play a record. Overall it’s already been worth what I paid.
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The God of Israel
Three years ago today Hamas massacred Israeli civilians. I spent a minute in silence to remember the horrific attack. And then Israel went to war to defend itself. Now it is being blamed for committing the atrocities that it suffered. It is milenia old blood libel yet again. But God is with the Jews more…
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Overdue for a Haircut
What do you think? Am I overdue for a haircut? I’m torn. A bunch of extra hair is good for the winter months, and the ratty hair and beard go with my ratty teeth. It’s definitely weird, but I don’t know if it’s awesome or awful. I feel the same way about my life. The…
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I Deserve to be Heard
I saw my counselor today. I told him about the state of my life, about my relationship with Stephanie now that there is zero chance to save the marriage, about what a least restrictive environment looks like for the boys and why I still think it’s with me, and about my engagement with The Church,…
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General Conference O26
I watched almost all of the Sunday sessions of the General Conference of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints today. President Oaks wants me to be a peacemaker. Peacemakers don’t bring a spirit of contention with them wherever they go. Peacemakers aren’t crude and gross. It is impossible for me to change…
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The Suit
Stephanie wrote a poem a few months ago about me. I think it is called A Suit of Clothes. It is in her new self published book called Feral and Freaking. Perhaps she will send me the links and I will attach them to this post. The poem is about her long term mistake that…
