Tag: gratitude
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Suffering, Struggle, and Gratitude
I have an online friend who wants to eliminate suffering. All suffering if possible. I reject the idea that this is possible. She and I for instance agree that we live in a war universe. We also agree that war is chocked full of innocent bystanders. So my argument is that we would have to…
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No New Snow
Today has been a quiet day in the house. Stephanie allowed me to sleep in except for the times that Ben did not. My extended family is dealing with city crippling snow storms. Today it didn’t snow here. The gratitude is real.
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Easy Chair 26
I have spent most of the time I have been awake today in my easy chair or going to or from it. I am still in last night’s jammies. And yet I have been relatively productive. I can do a lot from my phone: reading, writing, art, and most importantly checking up on family and…
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Staring into the Void
I spend to much time looking at screens. I’ve got a top notch personal computer, a decent cell phone, and a Fire TV. I’m thinking about all the empty white space on this webpage. I am staring into the void and wondering how to fill it. If you are here you probably stare into the…
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Real and Necessary
Today started with a struggle. Stephanie went on vacation and the boys are a handful on my own. But she came home early because she found herself and didn’t like the experience of being completely alone. But the struggle turned into gratitude for each other.
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Taking the Good with the Bad
Today has been mostly good. I’m well loved and well fed. The technology that my life depends on remains intact. The refrigerator works, so does the house fan, and the internet. I was able to rip some CDs onto my computer. I haven’t had to change a light bulb. I still got screamed at a…
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Torn Up
“Thy dross to consume and thy gold to refine.” -How Firm a Foundation I hope that all the battering that life is doing to me really will work out for my own good. The week is almost over and hopefully the new one will be better. As I say often: The struggle is real and…
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Just Four More Minutes
I didn’t want to get out of bed today. I bargained for a few more minutes of sleep. Now mind you it hasn’t been a bad day. Stephanie had a horrible day but I’ll let her tell you about that. Ben came home screaming and got an emergency pill, but at least he didn’t attack…
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Struggle and Gratitude
I have been saying “The struggle is real but so is the gratitude” a lot lately. It is my own phrase though in the end it will probably be misattributed to Aristotle or Confucius. But I’ll spell out what it means to me right now in this moment. The word struggle is deeply tied to…
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The Hyperalert Crash
Lately I’ve been having trouble waking up on time. Years of being hyperalert because of the boys autism is really starting to catch up with me. This week has been worse than normal. I was late for the day program driver and barely had time to get dressed before the appointment with the boys’ nurse.…
Latter Day Sinner 