Tag: struggle
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Suffering, Struggle, and Gratitude
I have an online friend who wants to eliminate suffering. All suffering if possible. I reject the idea that this is possible. She and I for instance agree that we live in a war universe. We also agree that war is chocked full of innocent bystanders. So my argument is that we would have to…
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Cold Pricklies
Stephanie and I are in a long term argument about whether I argue too much. When I was little I had a book that taught me about giving people warm fuzzies and not giving them cold pricklies. It, like most of my childhood, created a very unrealistic expectation of my capabilities as an adult. I…
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Easy Chair 26
I have spent most of the time I have been awake today in my easy chair or going to or from it. I am still in last night’s jammies. And yet I have been relatively productive. I can do a lot from my phone: reading, writing, art, and most importantly checking up on family and…
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Staring into the Void
I spend to much time looking at screens. I’ve got a top notch personal computer, a decent cell phone, and a Fire TV. I’m thinking about all the empty white space on this webpage. I am staring into the void and wondering how to fill it. If you are here you probably stare into the…
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Real and Necessary
Today started with a struggle. Stephanie went on vacation and the boys are a handful on my own. But she came home early because she found herself and didn’t like the experience of being completely alone. But the struggle turned into gratitude for each other.
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Getting Older
We are all rushing toward death. Some days I can feel that more than others. The ride hasn’t been a gentle one for me. It’s always something. Perhaps I am not an outlier. Everyone works and everyone worries. I should not make that into a competition but I usually do. My life hasn’t been bad…
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Taking the Good with the Bad
Today has been mostly good. I’m well loved and well fed. The technology that my life depends on remains intact. The refrigerator works, so does the house fan, and the internet. I was able to rip some CDs onto my computer. I haven’t had to change a light bulb. I still got screamed at a…
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Torn Up
“Thy dross to consume and thy gold to refine.” -How Firm a Foundation I hope that all the battering that life is doing to me really will work out for my own good. The week is almost over and hopefully the new one will be better. As I say often: The struggle is real and…
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Just Four More Minutes
I didn’t want to get out of bed today. I bargained for a few more minutes of sleep. Now mind you it hasn’t been a bad day. Stephanie had a horrible day but I’ll let her tell you about that. Ben came home screaming and got an emergency pill, but at least he didn’t attack…
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Struggle and Gratitude
I have been saying “The struggle is real but so is the gratitude” a lot lately. It is my own phrase though in the end it will probably be misattributed to Aristotle or Confucius. But I’ll spell out what it means to me right now in this moment. The word struggle is deeply tied to…
Latter Day Sinner 