Tag: surrender
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Acknowledging God
I have gone back to church since Stephanie and I agreed to divorce. In several of the discussions there we’ve been talking about a pattern that is very strange to me. Many people experience more faith in God when times are good and begin to blame Him when things are bad. I am the opposite.…
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Church with Brandon
My oldest son Brandon is inspired by my determination to surrender to God. Today he drove me to church again. He is unfortunately not finding the truth about God that he needs most in Mormonism. The Church can be very strict and he does not need that now. So next week I’m going to go…
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Therapy
I saw my counselor today. I told him above the divorce and that the only sincere apology I can make is changed behavior. Letting go and letting God. No more beer, no more THC, no more masturbation. I buried my weapons of war. She told me at some point this week that she hopes I…
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Cold Pricklies
Stephanie and I are in a long term argument about whether I argue too much. When I was little I had a book that taught me about giving people warm fuzzies and not giving them cold pricklies. It, like most of my childhood, created a very unrealistic expectation of my capabilities as an adult. I…
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Armistice
On the 11th hour of the 11th day of the 11th month the guns fell silent. World War One was supposed to be the war to end all wars. Over a hundred years of that theory being proven wrong makes me sad. I swore an oath to defend the Constitution of the United States and…
Latter Day Sinner 