Month: September 2026
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Moving Boxes
I miss my wife but I don’t think that woman exists anymore. Someone who looks like her comes to spend time with the kids. But she leaves every night to live in a motel. She says I’m toxic and abusive. So all that’s left of her in the home is her moving boxes to take…
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Large Item Pickup
Early tomorrow morning some people in the neighborhood that are far more motivated than I am are coming to pick up items that can’t go in the regular trash because they are too large. They announced it on Facebook a week ago, but I am not on Facebook. There also used to be neighborhood flyers.…
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Cassettes from the 80s
I got a package of cassettes today. It feels strange to be paying the same prices as I did back then. A person like me could buy entire lots of cassette tapes and vinyl records for a few dollars at a garage sale a decade ago. Now they are commodities again. It’s good music. Ben…
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Quiet Night
The boys are in bed. I logged out of No Man’s Sky. I’ve taken my meds and need to eat. At 11p my phone shuts off for the night. That is also when Forge of Empires changes to a new day, so I stay up a little past my bedtime every night to put the…
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Bedtime Requests
Ben knows I won’t give him pills and light off before 9pm. He’s been watching the clock to get his meds as soon as I’m willing to give them to him. He gets up early, and if he gets pills too early then he gets up too early. Alex has been noticing the pattern. Ben…
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Draining
Being an adult is draining, but it goes more smoothly if the drain works. Last Ether decided to lay on top of me as soon as I turned off all the lights and went to bed. When I shifted positions so did he. This went on for about an hour, and when he was done…
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Sobriety
I have been clean and sober for two months today. Beer and THC are liabilities. I just can’t be intoxicated alone in the house with the kids. Intoxicants are also against my religion and I have been learning much harder into my religion in the past few months. It’s easier for me to think God…
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Feeding the Cats
I joked today that it costs more to feed the cats than it does to feed me. That’s probably an exaggeration, but it feels that way sometimes. They like the little cans of patte. Hardly any of it goes to waste. A small box of those cans is $30. I love our cats and I…
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Sleeping During an Attack
Today is the 25th anniversary of terrorists taking over commercial jet liners and flying them into American symbols of capitalism and war. Some people wept that day. Some people cheered. I was asleep. I vaguely remember being woken up with news of the attack and rolling back over to sleep. I simply didn’t believe it…
