Category: witness
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Iglacia
I went to Sacrament Meeting today. One of the talks was by a sister from Nicaragua who presented in Spanish. She had one of the girls in the ward repeat what she was saying in English periodically. It was a good talk and I understand a lot of religious words in Spanish so I almost…
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Breakup Songs
Over the years and especially in the 80s and 90s I learned a lot of breakup songs. I just finished listening to Niel Diamond and Barbara Streisand sing “You Don’t Bring Me Flowers.” It brought tears to my eyes. This divorce is only the third real breakup in my life. The first was Delia. We…
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The Phone is Gone
We went to the park today and there was a payphone station that appears to have been preserved for posterity. The phone is gone and much of the world that needed payphones is gone too. As my life shifts to a “new normal” I look back at the normals of years gone bye with bittersweet…
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Quiet Night
The boys are in bed. I logged out of No Man’s Sky. I’ve taken my meds and need to eat. At 11p my phone shuts off for the night. That is also when Forge of Empires changes to a new day, so I stay up a little past my bedtime every night to put the…
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Sobriety
I have been clean and sober for two months today. Beer and THC are liabilities. I just can’t be intoxicated alone in the house with the kids. Intoxicants are also against my religion and I have been learning much harder into my religion in the past few months. It’s easier for me to think God…
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Sleeping During an Attack
Today is the 25th anniversary of terrorists taking over commercial jet liners and flying them into American symbols of capitalism and war. Some people wept that day. Some people cheered. I was asleep. I vaguely remember being woken up with news of the attack and rolling back over to sleep. I simply didn’t believe it…
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Abundance
I have a meditation tape that is just titled Abundance. It asks me to visualize what I want to have in more abundance. Financial security is what I’ve been answering to myself lately. But it also asks harder questions. What qualities do I need for the kind of abundance I desire and what qualities do…
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Security
The price of security is vigilance. Absolutely nothing lasts forever. Anything you want to keep you must be willing to defend. And if you defend something well it might outlive you. There’s a promise in Mormonism that with the correct ordinances that family relationships will last beyond death. But they are still maintained with vigilance…
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Degrees of Order
There is chaos in the system. Imperfections. We recognize order because we have chaos for a comparison. We understand degrees of order when we understand degrees of disorder. Entropy is real. Everything cascades to chaos. Heat death. Human beings see entropy and we struggle against it. We imagine forms of life where our thoughts and…
