Month: July 2026
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Intimidation
I can be very intimidating. I have the ability to seem much more violent than I can actually be. My bark is far worse than my bite. That usually serves me effectively. I’ve never killed anyone nor do I want to do so. I have 1st Nephi in the back of my head that if…
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Incrementalism
2 Nephi 28:30 “For behold, thus saith the Lord God: I will give unto the children of men line upon line, precept upon precept, here a little and there a little; and blessed are those who hearken unto my precepts, and lend an ear unto my counsel, for they shall learn wisdom; for unto him…
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Hippie
It’s been a long day. First for the record I need to say I hate “banker’s hours.” I went to a credit union at 3:30 to set up a new account. The only person there authorized to do that was in a meeting until four and wasn’t taking any customers after that. That stinks for…
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Fighting
Ether didn’t come in the house tonight until Stephanie called him. He’d been fighting so she rubbed beeswax in the tender areas. Ether likes to fight. I joked that I do too but neither one of us is any good at it. I need to continue to ask Jesus to take away my fighting disposition.…
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Therapy
I saw my counselor today. I told him above the divorce and that the only sincere apology I can make is changed behavior. Letting go and letting God. No more beer, no more THC, no more masturbation. I buried my weapons of war. She told me at some point this week that she hopes I…
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Air Conditioning
We got that air conditioner. It works as advertised. The house has been 78 degrees since we turned it on. I read somewhere that cognitive function declines when the body overheats. I told Stephanie that I was sorry for the things I said when I was too hot to know better. She did not appreciate…
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Stay
Why do I want her to stay? Stephanie says we are divorced and that the marriage we had is not worth fighting for. She asked me why I want her to stay. There are certainly selfish reasons. I appreciate her womanhood, but that’s objectifying. I appreciate her familiarity but that has been dying of late.…
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The Illusion of Individuality
Individuals have very little actual control over their environment. For instance we are getting a new air conditioner to go in our central service. I could not make and install an air conditioner myself. A lot of someone elses built it, several someone elses will install it, and someone other than that is paying for…
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A Rainy Third
Tomorrow is Independence Day in the US. People celebrate by blowing stuff up. It’s an American tradition. It’s rainy tonight so not many people are out with fireworks. The kid next door said his dad already set off all the good ones. There were some real doosies. The rain means tomorrow’s city celebration won’t be…
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Hurt
“I will let you down. I will make you hurt.” – Johnny Cash 100% is a tall order. Doing something 100% of the time is impossible without God. Not doing something 100% of the time is also impossible without God. If the standard is perfection which 100% is, then I will let you down and…
