Category: rant
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A Rainy Third
Tomorrow is Independence Day in the US. People celebrate by blowing stuff up. It’s an American tradition. It’s rainy tonight so not many people are out with fireworks. The kid next door said his dad already set off all the good ones. There were some real doosies. The rain means tomorrow’s city celebration won’t be…
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Hurt
“I will let you down. I will make you hurt.” – Johnny Cash 100% is a tall order. Doing something 100% of the time is impossible without God. Not doing something 100% of the time is also impossible without God. If the standard is perfection which 100% is, then I will let you down and…
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Analog Backup
I saw a trailer for a movie that was trying to be scary with a screen that said: Signal lost! I grew up in an analog world before anyone but the military worried about signal failure. But it got me wondering how much analog backup we currently have. This blog is a tiny digital footprint…
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Hot and Cold
The weather is hot but the atmosphere is cold. We are alive but uncomfortable in more ways than one. Most of the work that needed to get done today has gotten done. Life goes on because we make the effort for it to go on. The struggle is real and necessary but so is the…
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sustainable
Stephanie and I argue about whether our lives should be sustainable (her view) or maintainable (my view). The difference is that a sustainable lifestyle is theoretically permanent where a maintainable lifestyle only keeps working as long as we keep working on it. She wants sanctuary and I want prosperity. We are at an impasse.
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Dysregulated
Everyone has been dysregulated since the coffee and Final Fantasy earlier this week. I don’t think it’s going to kill us but everyone has been yelling bloody murder at me so in this case I may be wrong. I am starting to catastrophize like the rest of the family. We need each other and if…
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Dissociation
If you read yesterday’s posts you may guess that Stephanie was none too happy with me about getting laser focused on Final Fantasy. She doesn’t for obvious reasons like being considered a “distraction.” The language that she used was that I dissociate. Apparently that is a bigger problem than I realized and far more general…
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Distractions
I’ve had 300 mg of caffeine in the past couple of hours. That means I can single mindedly ignore distractions. Sadly my focus has been entirely on Final Fantasy. I have successfully ignored my wife, children, and friends on Discord. I type frantically so I can publish this before I get the man child a…
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Keep the Cat in the House
Ben doesn’t like it when the cats are outside. It’s a cold rainy day to at least today I am inclined to agree with him. The problem is that he doesn’t have a good idea of whether Ether is in or out. He opens the door to check and Ether runs out. Then the cat…
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Lazy Weekends
Stephanie has been getting up in the morning so I don’t have to do so. Oddly she doesn’t bill on the weekends so Saturday and Sunday are technically her days off. But my days off are Monday and Tuesday, and I still work. Caregiving is on call 24/7. I am still ending up being lazy…
