-
Draining
Being an adult is draining, but it goes more smoothly if the drain works. Last Ether decided to lay on top of me as soon as I turned off all the lights and went to bed. When I shifted positions so did he. This went on for about an hour, and when he was done…
-
Sobriety
I have been clean and sober for two months today. Beer and THC are liabilities. I just can’t be intoxicated alone in the house with the kids. Intoxicants are also against my religion and I have been learning much harder into my religion in the past few months. It’s easier for me to think God…
-
Feeding the Cats
I joked today that it costs more to feed the cats than it does to feed me. That’s probably an exaggeration, but it feels that way sometimes. They like the little cans of patte. Hardly any of it goes to waste. A small box of those cans is $30. I love our cats and I…
-
Sleeping During an Attack
Today is the 25th anniversary of terrorists taking over commercial jet liners and flying them into American symbols of capitalism and war. Some people wept that day. Some people cheered. I was asleep. I vaguely remember being woken up with news of the attack and rolling back over to sleep. I simply didn’t believe it…
-
Skeeball
My parents are on Mackinac Island, Michigan. When I was about seven or eight we went there as a family. There was an amazing game there that I had a lot of fun playing. I didn’t have a name for it to request it later. And as a kid I had only ever seen it…
-
Abundance
I have a meditation tape that is just titled Abundance. It asks me to visualize what I want to have in more abundance. Financial security is what I’ve been answering to myself lately. But it also asks harder questions. What qualities do I need for the kind of abundance I desire and what qualities do…
-
Security
The price of security is vigilance. Absolutely nothing lasts forever. Anything you want to keep you must be willing to defend. And if you defend something well it might outlive you. There’s a promise in Mormonism that with the correct ordinances that family relationships will last beyond death. But they are still maintained with vigilance…
-
Degrees of Order
There is chaos in the system. Imperfections. We recognize order because we have chaos for a comparison. We understand degrees of order when we understand degrees of disorder. Entropy is real. Everything cascades to chaos. Heat death. Human beings see entropy and we struggle against it. We imagine forms of life where our thoughts and…
-
Keeping Things Clean
Now that I have zero expectation that someone else is going to do any of the housework, I have accepted the struggle of keeping things clean by myself. I did the dishes today. I need to do them about once a week. The boys and I used a lot of disposable plates and silverware, so…
-
Family Meal
For several days I have wanted pizza. Stephanie and William came over today and I suggested Domino’s. Everyone agreed. I got a pizza, Alex got a pizza, William got a pizza, Ben got boneless chicken, and Stephanie got baked cheese pasta. We all got a soda. Brandon is in Indiana with Nevaeh today but he…
-
Subscribe
Subscribed
Have a WordPress.com account? Log in now.
