Category: witness
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Incrementalism
2 Nephi 28:30 “For behold, thus saith the Lord God: I will give unto the children of men line upon line, precept upon precept, here a little and there a little; and blessed are those who hearken unto my precepts, and lend an ear unto my counsel, for they shall learn wisdom; for unto him…
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Fighting
Ether didn’t come in the house tonight until Stephanie called him. He’d been fighting so she rubbed beeswax in the tender areas. Ether likes to fight. I joked that I do too but neither one of us is any good at it. I need to continue to ask Jesus to take away my fighting disposition.…
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Therapy
I saw my counselor today. I told him above the divorce and that the only sincere apology I can make is changed behavior. Letting go and letting God. No more beer, no more THC, no more masturbation. I buried my weapons of war. She told me at some point this week that she hopes I…
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Stay
Why do I want her to stay? Stephanie says we are divorced and that the marriage we had is not worth fighting for. She asked me why I want her to stay. There are certainly selfish reasons. I appreciate her womanhood, but that’s objectifying. I appreciate her familiarity but that has been dying of late.…
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Hurt
“I will let you down. I will make you hurt.” – Johnny Cash 100% is a tall order. Doing something 100% of the time is impossible without God. Not doing something 100% of the time is also impossible without God. If the standard is perfection which 100% is, then I will let you down and…
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Letting God
I am contemplating the idea of “Letting go and letting God.” My life is in turmoil. Those who are closest to me know the details so I will not continue to post them publicly. I am painfully aware that I am not in control of anyone else and I am surrendering even my own will…
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Star in the East
I have been listening to several versions of a Christian hymn called Star in the East. One of them stops at the second to last verse about bringing the Lord gems, pearls, and gold. The presentation might give you the idea that the song writer meant that as a good thing. But the last verse…
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Time with William
William came over today just to hang out. We talked for a bit until I got a call from Danny. Stephanie told me to get off the phone and I did. I offered to put in a movie for William and me, but he wasn’t interested. We talked a little more and then he had…
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Infinity to Eternity
When you first learned about infinity you probably started with the idea that natural numbers are infinite and that given an eternity one could count forever. But that opens a whole bucket of philosophical slop. Most people I know believe that the universe had a beginning and that absolutely nothing existed in the eternal past.…
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Evening Hymns
I had already listened to my daily hymns when Ben asked for pills and soda simultaneously. As I’ve said here before he cannot have both at the same time. Caffeine and Benadryl tend to cancel each other out in his body. So I made him use expressive language to choose between the two. He wanted…
